for some reason when i saw this picture
i thought of Bintan
now i wanna go back
and never come back

NEW YEAR'S EVE WAS AWESOME!
until i pushed sean kang into the pool with his omina 2.
then i felt really bad and sobered up real quick.
ct tucked zach in and ended up sleeping herself
and dee went home early so i ended up chatting with
joe labu and a bit of dian here and there while she
dose in and out of her sleep thanks to endless combat mosquitos.

we dressed up boomzy and we didnt need booze to get high,
even though that happend later!
i had such a great time with the lovelies as usual
cos of their spontaneity and as usual they are too much fun!
XOXOXOXXOX

i love this pic to bits!
it shows off the united nude!
i wanna get moooore!
cheers to 2010.
i hope we grow old together happily!
more new years and beginnings!

5 more months till pudgy comes home!
thats still a pretty long time though.
 

i have made a new key to my survival, but i'm scared that that too would fail me,
leave me shattered and in tears once again.

i woke up today with a punch on my chest. i woke up in fear. i woke up crying. i had better days. i feel week and i feel emotional. but why? there's nothing else i can do to take this pain i've been fighting away. i keep telling myself, i am stronger then this but i'm not. and survival seems to be the only motivation i have. i should move on. blow me away, in hope that i'll fly off to the distant where there is no pain where ill be long and forgotten; not even a distant memory. i wanna run away from it all. but again? Isn't there anything else i can do but that?

source: ebay
im dying to get my hands on this.
but first up dian black one.
ebay can be a bitch at times,
when everyone wants the same thing!
BAHHHHHH

anyways this cracked me up reall bad!

 

Our skin is marked with experiences like rings on a tree. Some of these trees have been carved with beautiful things and some of them have been chopped away at by careless human beings. Each person you meet, a new ring on your tree.

9 more days to my 21st, 28 more days to my departure to Australia (J, I wish I could pack you in the suitcase with me even when you take the piss out of me most of the time).

 

This post comes a little late but still, it's here.

Breathe deep. The year, 2009 has come to an end. Your heart is one year stronger, your bones are one year tougher. We survived and we’re alive. It’s beautiful. The year may have been ups and downs, broken hearts, broken homes, broken bones but it will soon be behind us. Take everything that has happened in and let it feed your soul to make it strong. Learn from the past. we’re constantly learning. Constantly developing. Don’t let your heart grow heavy with things that have happened. Your heart is already doing so much, let’s not burden it with negativity. Feed it strong, encouraging words. Make it a beacon of light. Let us glow from the inside out with experience and beauty. Let us glow